Created: November 15, 2014 | Updated: November 15, 2014
Genre : Romance
Language : English
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We drove home each night,
Each star-lit night,
and you used to smile at me.
Hand tangled in hair
tangled in hearts-
we were inseparable.
I never liked to sit up front, and still
I sat next to you no matter where.
And just before we turned onto the
street we lived on,
We'd pass a house.
You would always say,
"Turn at the corner of that ugly yellow house."
We'd share a bed, and we'd share a dream,
and we'd share a laugh.
We used
to be happy like that.
One night we drove home in the pouring
rain. It covered us like sheets.
Teeth chattering, breath wavering, hands rubbing,
Chilled,
You didn't welcome me to bed.
The lights were burnt out
and I could only feel the deep thrumming
of something I couldn't name.
Still, I begged for something.
"Hold my paint burshes, love,"
I said as I prepared the canvas.
I had to pick the brushes up from the floor.
Knuckles bleeding, throats aching, skies crying, I was so
Angry
with you.
Agony bled through my shirt, sticky and revolting
where my heart once was,
But you were unrelenting in your attempts
to tear me down.
All this anger ripped away at me
like a hurricane-
All that worthless anger-
I've said things
to this bedroom wall I regret.
The next night we went home you still said,
"Turn at the corner of that ugly yellow house,"
but your eyes were dull and unseeing.
Your body was cold as death, and
it was as if you didn't hear a word you'd just said.
I wanted to pour paint over your head.
I wanted you to say something!
Anything
to show me you weren't this robot,
this mechanical being that utters and sputters
the same things
over and over- that isn't
what it is to be human;
I find myself thinking humanity
is something only found on the page of a
dictionary.
We slept in the same bed, but we
never shared a soul as we used to.
You have broken that from me.
On the third night I forced myself
through the torment of driving
home with you. We passed
that house
in a choking, a suffocating kind of silence.
And so I tried to say it,
I said,
"Turned at the corner of that ugly yellow house."
You are solid concrete under anything
I thought you once were.
I don't know why
broken wrists and shattered kneecaps are
not enough to say "I'm in pain."
And if I do know anything, I know
that you can't live
in a world with an absent sun.
Alone on this highway,
I only wish I painted that house a prettier color.