There was a time of peace…

Chapter I: His Name

I saw her, standing in the darkness far away,

My hands were cold; the ice of this winter's day covered my fingers,

It stung them, devoured the warmth, willing to betray me.

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I shouted, reached out to touch her flaming cheek,

But it exploded into a thousand sparks of nothingness,

And she was gone, with every element known to humanity.

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I was alone, I am alone, and I will be, forever perhaps,

The wolves of the night shout my distorted name,

Remind me of all those times I was wrong,

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All those victims that proved me right…

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"Leave." She says, her voice is emotionless,

I hear, "Stay," in those trembling notes,

Taking a step forward, I wrap my hands around the void,

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Embrace her as if she is alive…

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I wait; I rush forward, impatient now.

The clemency on my soul has expired,

Now I seek the truth behind the dusty bookshelves of my burned library,

I throw the ash of the books to the floor, I push my way forward.

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I find nothing…

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The escape from reality, the escape to find one true explanation,

Why do I love her?

When the leaves from the ancient trees fall, surviving the blades of ice, unable to give me,

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A chance for empathy…

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She is different, unlike the ones I drowned in longing,

Her eyes showed me the waters worth drowning in,

The spirit of her being, the blood of her heart,

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All lost in the inferno of a passionate demise…

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She told me her name; Devil knows how to hail those letters out loud,

I tried,

Once, twice, three times; still receiving no explanation of what those eyes held within.

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Her eyes were metal doors, hiding her soul,

Away from me, and all of those who dared to throw agony upon her kind,

But she saw something in me.

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Something sparked a growing bond between us.

Invisible, fragile.

One step wrong, failure, darkness; I have no excuse to mess up.

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And so, I started simple:

I gave her my name.

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"Me…Haytham…I come in peace…"

2: That Night

Longing for indifference…

Chapter II: His Nightmare

I shouted his name, it echoed instead,

Through the thick covers of snow and rain,

I saw nothing but crimson clouds crawling over my eyes.

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The vanished hope became a muddy image in the back of my head,

I ran perhaps too much on the sinful earth,

And yet I was too young to walk my path.

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I rushed to grow up.

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And here I had a blade in my hand,

Its shining peace hailed of peril,

And I did not let go.

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I pierced the flesh of one guilty with the rest.

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The soul that carried me in her womb, has widened her eyes,

She saw a monster crawling deep within my form,

Exposing its fangs, changing her forever from now.

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I saw the Leader of my existence, fall to his knees

Before the shadow of my nightmares,

Those voices that told me what was right when I never listened.

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And He was gone.

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I shouted his title, a dearest Father,

A Teacher, and Protector.

He did not answer my cry.

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I ran. Again.

A man in a child's body,

Ready to strike, avenge the death of One.

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They have escaped, they took my sister,

Disappeared in the thick rain as the fire spread within the halls,

Leaving a bleeding figure on the floor of the chamber that held the knowledge.

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It held our secret.

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I wish there was a time to fix the mistakes committed by foolishness,

I long to find the answer of reason,

But I lost everything gaining a new life.

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A fresh page, blind and innocent.

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Father, Mother, Jenny.

Three figures that became the scars in my soul.

I mourn them, whether alive or dead.

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I miss them at night,

As the slumber is deep and lingering,

I see their faces, bloodied, eyes of disappointment.

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Forgive me, and Farewell.

3: Lead Us

Abyss of Treasure…

Chapter III: His Escort

They are with me,

Those precious members of a circle,

Slowly killed off by their own ignorance,

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Their folly.

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I lead them,

Into an abyss where promised luxury of perfection

Is just another illusion,

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A treat for their blind eyes.

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I touch the rough surface of the doors

That have opportunity behind them,

I touch the golden doorknob, but never twisted it.

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It is bleeding with wrong decisions.

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I chase a goal,

I have a heavy burden of a chain behind me,

One wrong move, and everything will collapse like a cheap castle,

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Made out of burning dreams.

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I earn trust,

I force the order into their hands,

They swallow their pride and follow.

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Blood has become the only colour we know.

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I climb the rooftops of the highest buildings,

Long watch I Helios before he vanishes,

Takes his chariot away,

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Where I want to be.

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I jump down,

Sometimes wishing to forget and to miss the target,

Give the world an apology and become a loving embrace,

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For those who never knew of death.

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Tears are something I learned to tolerate,

But never feel on my own cheeks,

Nor feel regret,

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When my elegant blade rains death.

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My Order,

My Purpose,

My Direction.

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No more than that.

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Or did I just say that to make it seem

That everything was so simple,

The world would certainly change,

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Without Us.

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But I bring peace,

With blood?

No.

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With sober reason.

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They hate me,

Us,

But our rebirth is greater than a Phoenix.

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I will make things right,

To make her proud,

To give her shelter,

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And make myself regret less.

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I hold the knowledge that many were fooled by,

I know the pain,

That is why I lead them.

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I am the Master.

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Or is it just a name?

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What is my name

When I cannot save those that I once loved,

The Sun God has turned the rays away from me,

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But I still rise.

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My eyes are sharp with the visions of the past,

My mind sober from the nights before,

I lead them now,

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Or never.

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I am sorry.