Sparkatale

I guess I can admit to being the kind of person who cares way too much about her physical appearance. I buy this, and I buy that. Products, products, products. Although I don't use a whole lot of make up because my skin is naturally awesome (Thank God for that).

I workout to stay in shape, even though I don't gain a lot of weight when I eat too much. When my boyfriend buys a coke and a bag of chips for a Friday evening, I'll just grab an apple. I practiced in my apartment for hours to walk sexy in high heels that hurt like hell whenever I actually go outside. I read all the fashion magazines and buy the clothes you should buy.

But no matter how hard I try, I'm never perfect to me. And my opinions are influenced by the media's standards. I'm like a prisoner, in a sense.

Am I happy? I guess? I don't know.

Is it worth it? Having guys eye you up and down when you walk down the street, which they wouldn't if your habits were different?

You tell me. Is it?

I think if it isn't making you happy, you shouldn't do it. I mean, unless you believe in reincarnation or whatever, you only live once. So do what makes you happy, and don't limit yourself. It's okay to want to be attractive, and it's okay to want to be healthy, and look good, but there's too much pressure put on everyone, particularly females, to look like the girl in the magazine, and it kind of sucks the fun out of life. 

But we don't really teach anyone that not caring about what other people think of your appearance is important to feel good. I don't know, I meant to type up a concise answer but I feel this turned into more of a ramble than I meant. 

Anyways, what I was trying to say is if you think it's worth it than it is but don't live your life dictated by what others think and certainly don't force yourself to look good for others because in the end we wont look good enough to some people.