Perception and Point Of View

 

Once again, this concrete ceiling seems throwing me back to the reality everytime my consciousness was come off from it place. There been countless times for my mind flying through that ceiling, attempt to run from the reality that right in my front just now. It’s true that this isn’t a good place for me to spend the rest of my life which very short is. Most people in out there said, ‘the best place for you to end your own life is in deep inside a quiet calmness’, but unfortunately that in my case was a very simple thing like that couldn’t happen anymore.

I still clearly feel my right hand that keep shaking while pointing a shotgun at 'Dia' who standing in front of me. Though doing a same thing like me, something what makes ‘Dia’ different is just the look of his eyes which full of calmness, with a thin smile which always suits his craftiness perfectly. I bet if 'Dia' should have monopolized what is inside of my little brain is.

I don’t want to care about what I faced, even after everything that ‘Dia’ told me about Granpa and his past which no one have known the true reality before this. Unfortunately, my desire to not caring just make me can’t stop thinking about it and make me stuck in choke position like this.

“So... do you still think to not shooting it even in a situation like this?” his sneered which I hear very clearly, even I have known what it means without thinking too far. Right now my intention is just only one, and that means I must immediately end this boring game for forever.

I decided my choice after passing the heap of corpses in out there and listening to all of the truth. I don’t know if the world will forgive me or just cursing my act, but what I have understood right now that I‘m the only one person who can put an end to this crazy game.

I stepped my right foot without thinking and the second later I find my eyes only around one arm away from his eyes. My beloved knife keeps dancing and swirling at his front, but as I had known for long time, this sort thing isn’t a something new for him. I realize, no matter how fast I swinging this knife, how many bullets I have puked, and how hard the fists and kicks I have gived, only ‘Dia’ the only one person who can stop me like I try to stop him.

Red-blood pattern increasingly adorn our dull clothes by every wounds which imprinted in all over of our bodies. Mind, body, and my feeling now are only filled by emptiness and attempt to keep chasing ‘Dia’ whose his shadow hasn’t vanished from my life.

Far in out there, I for a while can imagining if someday I should go to the hell. Does something like this which will I find inside there later? I guess the answer is still yet nothing, and these all are just a little beginning before the real journey is started.

There will no face filled by many expressions which you used to see in everyday. The thing what you can find now is only the faces which full of revenge, cry, emptiness, even silhouette of madness which you can not captured except in the moment that full of chaos just like now.

Every shouts that full of hatred and fears even sounds louder than every buildings explosion which collapsed among these many crowds. The entire world now fall inside the confusions after what they have been believed and they didn’t know suddenly broken in front of their eyes.

That is ‘None’, where ‘Dia’ means to expose to the world some things what have been hidden and let them to choose what will they do with those reality. ‘Dia’ actually not a god or even a devil, but his ability and plans this entire time are enough to make people think otherwise.

Only I who know the way of his thought just like ‘Dia’ understands the way of mine. From many things that been happened, the most things which I have passed always connected to him. About our past, personality, ability and perspective actually not so different, just the way what we have taken are opposite to each other, though we have the same purpose.

Many things that I must through to be able to reach at this point. I still remember, that a moment ago I should deal with a young man who had been admiring me just like a hero. He was the person who used to learn from me about how to become an ‘Executor’ –a cold-blooded figure who is able to do anything.

I didn’t really remember the things that I have through with him at back then, but I know that he was really obsessed to become or even surpassing the figure of mine before. For me, he was just a little bad and innocent boy who had not found his true self. And now, it just feel so ridiculous for me to say that when I supposed to realize if I self was the one who had been so.

I honestly hated his obsessive side, but that had covered by his will to always try to reach what he wanted by full of ambition. Maybe he was my only one juniors –I thought so- who was very closed and knew about me beside ‘Dia’.

I also still remembered when he really made me almost losing my life a few months ago. There was my first time to meet with him after that Dark Periods with a new figure. He had trully fullfilled his dream and managed to surpass me, meanwhile I should accept my second defeat.

He did have an ability and character which a bit similar to me, maybe more corrertly if he seemed become a mirror for the people around him. In my entire life, it was my first time to see an ambitious person like him, even at his ages who back then was still relatively a child. However, past and present are two things which very different

The building where I was here right now wasn’t a magnificent building. This had planned in such way to not make any attention about the procession of a crusial event that had been done in this place. How not, some of the corpses that I found in this place were they who this entire time always showed in television or just speaking from radio.

They were just a crowd of people who shared a same ambition and tried to coordinate those all at this conference. I self no longer wanted to take any bussines with the politic things which full of hidden intentions like that. I preferred choosing to life in an isolated area without access of any information rather than continue hoarding many informations which still uncleared like that.

Everyone who knew the details of the world conditions right now should have familiar to what been they thought. And of course this had been included in the scenario that had ‘Dia’ created in such way. You maybe will think that ‘Dia’ seems can to see through to the future, meanwhile for me is what ‘Dia’ has thought and done are the one which creating the future according to what ‘Dia’ wants.

Ah, just forget about it! For suddenly there crossed so many things which proppping after a few moments ago I cleared my mind only to face with ‘Dia’. How are their condition in out there? Erick, Captain Yoga and lieutenant, then Dana. Are they will make it? I’m doubt when seeing the condition which become more messed just like now.

At first time I came to this place, we except Dana should attempt so hard to avoid the aggressive defense that prevented anybody to interupt the activity of ‘The Host’ who still busy to begin his game. From the air to the ground were same to become messed, even I and Erick that took the separated way still had to meet an uninvited guest.

Maybe that was the first and also the last time for me seeing an Erick Simorang who very enthusiastic facing something. I didn’t know very well about him –not at all-, but  I thought he wasn’t the type of person who wanted to involve in some problems if it didn’t relate to him, just same like me.

Now my position increasingly dangerous and the option which I can take increasingly limited. That was the way of ‘Dia’ which slowly made his opponent got to a death step by killing every options they had until only just left one last option for them. For many years I had seen the pattern which looked so easy like that, and for many years also never once I had managed to turn it over, not at all.

His smile which looks plain but disgusting, trully harmonized with the stare of his eyes that looks empty and his movement which full by intentions to kill directionally. That isn’t a simple thing to guess his movement and mindset which has seemed as a foggy maze. Every wounds on all over of my body should enough to discribe about how tough for me to do such thing, but doesn’t mean that is completely useless, I just need enough time and space to be able to merge into his movement rhythm.

I just remembered about information from Alan in connection of plan of ‘Dia’ which there was a relation to the leaders of United Nations (UN) side. I hadn’t really known, but that was a continuation of Puzzle pieces which I had been trying to arrange from what I had investigated.

Before my team were arrived, Dana had arrived first with the representations from Indonesia to ensure the truth from the front side, meanwhile for my team, especially I and Erick would move from the back side. Myself still quiet tough to believe to some points that had been told by Alan, especially about Refan. Captain Yoga whose for the first time I met also had a same views as mine.

Well, whatever it was, now everything are slowly to become clear. Only have to unravel some threads again and you will find the tip, maybe that was a suitable imagery to the research which I had been doing for this entire time that will bare the result soon.

My burden which still remained until this time maybe only Dana and Riska. For Riska, myself still confused to respond it like what. How could for I to think normally after she clearly opened everything in my front. It feels confusing and oppositting each other, till you will can’t to comment her words at back then.

Just like the others, I also didn’t knowing Riska so far. What I had known was she just an ordinary girl who had a different mindset and sometimes could make me impressed. One thing that I couldn’t forget from her, that was her eyes which felt familiar for me, and now I had known the reason.

Some of my investigations were always accompanied by her figure that seemed calm but full of seriously and enthusiasm as it was. Maybe because we happened to dabble in the field which had a same theme –actually Refan too- and we also had a mindset which about to same.

Just for a second I turn my focus, and ‘Dia’ aggressively continue to pierce the gap which I have made from my carelessness was. So ridiculous, I just think to something else while I know that I’m at a pinch. But, what I can do? I think, rather than have to die for a waste without remembering anything, maybe it will a bit cooler if I die with remembering again every single of that memories.

My estimate is only one, if I can to understand to what underlying ‘Dia’ to move, then I will understand the movement of ‘Dia’ too. What is becoming a problem is something that acts as ‘the background’ in this case? And that is for once again make me connecting it to some informations which I have received from Alan.

He told me some points which had leaded me until this far. His call at back then unconsciously had told me, if what I passed had reached to a point of light. About Refan, I had leaved everything to Dana and the others.

But, if only I still abled to choose, I would glad if could spend the rest of my life inside the loneliess without had to feel something which so annoying like that for once again. How many time I tried to avoid it, but the reality about myself who just like this which always made me only had one option.

Ah, I remember... that I still bring this thing. For a moment, I try to adjust my breath for once again and as possible to get far away from ‘Dia’ without decreasing my guard. Maybe this will be a bit tough, but it have to be tried. Actually I don’t want to use it for the second time, but what I can do. The problem is what kind of response which later will be given by ‘Dia’.

I also can’t to just discard the chance which I have from the help of Dana and those two keepers. Impossible for me to be able to stand in front of ‘Dia’, if right now my body had became a pieces of flesh without soul in hand of ‘The Executioners’. That damn Alan, just how far he want to make me keep owe to him?

If talk about the maturity of plans, maybe Alan even more better than me. Felt like looking at the mirror of ‘Dia’ –in good manner- everytime I talked to him. I never expected that he had an idea which so dynamic was. Maybe it was the true nature of his character that made him seemed relax even though his brain had been working continously. Shit! Why now I do want to talk to him? Come On! Do you have forgotten?

Maybe my brain still yet recovered from the accident at back then. I should say my gratitude correctly to Ninda who did treating me. If only I could meet with her for a moment, maybe I could tell some things which I still yet had a time to tell her. But once again, what I can do about it.

“Are you finish?” asks from ‘Dia’ whose for a few moments ago his presence have completely I ignored because I too excited speculating inside of my mind which become more messes that. “If only your hand weren’t so shaky when attacking, you would be much easier to deceive me by the thought that you didn’t have any weapon again.”

It’s really annoying! If only his mouth weren’t making too much voices, it would be much easier for me to think clearly. But, it will be dangerous if I for once again be daydreaming and lack of focus. The Fact is, I already out of option and ‘Dia’ has intend to underline that thing. If only I didn’t know about him for a long time, maybe I had crazed by him.

Somehow my hands suddenly feels itchy. It feels that I very want to express all of this moments into a text. If only my notes were here, maybe my experience this time would be a story which exciting and wouldn’t be forgotten. But I should accept, by forgetting me, at least public will don’t have to remember again every single of the incident which terrible are. Because this is my decision, then by every single of that consequence, I will bear anything which to happen later until this game trully come to the end....

 

 

The Notes Left Behind

 

Even though today is my turn to enjoy the rest time from my activity that increasly crowding, somehow my leg can’t quiet and keep walking to the archives place which everyday never absent I visited. As usual, Berry always greet me anytime I open the door, but for today, of course be added by a classic question like ‘Don’t you have a holiday?’ and so on.

Because I have a lot of free time, I have intentioned from long ago to use this chance to deepen some things which still I miss and yet I know about my brother’s life.

The life of our childhood could be said not so lucky, but it hadn’t a matter for me. I just want to know more about the other side of my brother which this entire time by adeptly always he hidden from me and every people around him.

Who knows? Myself still can’t find the answer why I completely not realize it. Well, that’s my brother, a young man who his figure always be my inspiration and source of my spirit to keep survive in the new world.

A tales of the world at before maybe too often be heard till makes anybody instantly bored by it. That’s why I want to see the world when before through the view of brother. What made him into that far and what brother truly felt in deep inside of his heart?

Of course I must start everything from the thing which very common and has a relevance to the existence of my brother. I explore every segment of the case files and as the result I managed to find some files that will help me to start my search is.

From a batch of this files, some in among of it there is the involvement of my figure inside. Just said the row of large sabotage cases in some regions till chaos at the presiden’s elections back then which no less shocking the general audiences.

It must sure that I have an assumption by myself in every part even within the outline of those cases. But once again, maybe my brother who mysterious is has a view which far different from most people. Who knows?

Last time I heard the existence of my brother before he was arrested at back then was when the tragedy of sabotage at the airport in Pontianak City, West Kalimantan. At that time some of the chaos at several places had been resolved, but when all sides began to focus to that place, there hadn’t been found some signs about the presenced of continuation plans.

Back then I was focused to resolve the bomb threat at Kendari City, Central Sulawesi after went from Serang City, Banten one day before. That was trully a threat which couldn’t be underestimated, though in previously we had been made overwhelmed by the existence of the case at presiden’s elections.

Everything began from the case of candidate pairs number one which very shocking was, till finally everything seemed like a row of dominos which throwing down each others and came to the climax at many terrors of sabotage and bomb in large scale at several regions.

Myself at the first time just doing an investigation in global, because long before those cases been happened, some incident that quiet similar also happened at several countries in the world. I who actually moved independently just like my other teammates, at the end had decided to join with Interpol side and began to focus to the area of Southeast Asia, precisely in Malaysia, Indonesia, and Timor Leste.

After studying some files which now had divided into two heap on the table, I then relaxe for a moment while sometimes trying to pull out some conclusions which I have learned from the files at right ones –have I read.

“Have you found something?” Berry said when coming to the reading place near the window where I’m here now. His both hands are each bringing a cup of coffee which now his placed on the table, beside of two heaps of files which have been there first.

I just rise my shoulders and smiling to respond his question, because there is still a half of heap again which yet I learned. For a moment I glance to the clock near the bookshelf at the end of the room which now showing at ten o’clock .

“Say, Berry...” I said while grasping a cup of coffe which before are given by Berry. “Do you will have an activity after noon? Today you just duty for a half of day though”

“I guess no, did something happen?”

“I want you to accompany me to a someplace after lunch. About the meals later I will treat.” I persuaded while savoring the coffee he made that been famous by the good taste is.

“Are you seriuos?” he answered as if underestimating me while smiling. “Well, if you not bothered by expensive meals, then I will agree to come.”

“Just take it easy, later let 1 arranged about the meals if you positive to come.”

“Agree!” he answered loudly while shaking my hand as sign of the deal.

We’re at the end laughed freely, though we being in the room which generally a library is. Well, this we are, a pair of best friends that had known each other from when I was come to Indonesia at back then, and every day our compatibility was make us could understand each other easily.

Talks about best friend, did brother also have, huh? That’s true, maybe I should meet with Riska and Refan too. The three of us also have rarely to meet because the busy of each others. Maybe needs a little time to arrange our gathering later, so for now will be I focused to what have been there first.

“Ah, I remember this...,” Berry said while taking a file which placed at top in the heap right one. “This is the first report which you make when almost chasing Phantom Mask at the Incident of presiden’s election at back then.”

“I just finish reading that one.” I answered while placing my cup on the table.

File which Berry is mentioned this is when I for the first time faced with Phantom Mask, a serial killer who had executioned The Presiden of Indonesia before and some famous people else, and once revealing all of their hidden secrets to public which had led to public demonstration.

He was suspected to relate to the incidents at Chaotic Era period with some people else as Royal Chess, or who better known by nickname ‘The devils of warfield’ that almost make the world broke into global chaos. But for some reasons which yet be known, they suddenly disappeared for quiet a long time lag and began to move again in different pattern.

Myself still yet stepping clearly the incidents at Chaotic Era period or those background. I just heard some things and investigating it by a glance when coincidentally related with the case which I being handled.

And about Phantom Mask self, the reality was very shocking for me, especially when I knew who was he for the real. Now I had intentioned to not discuss anything about him in front of public. Though there were some people who now maybe have known, only for me, Riska, Refan and Ninda were know compeletely about that things to the some of that details.

I just continue my activity after Berry leave the reading room and back to his guardpost. Now I have came to the part of files which contain explanation about the existence of relevance between cases at Chaotic Era period with the cases in new world toward the last chaos which now is known by nickname Fall of None.

In outline, some sides who have a big influence in Chaotic Era until Fall of None are United Nations (UN), Royal Chess, and the group where I ever has joined inside is Executive Suit. About UN, must be everybody know though not so detail, while for Royal Chess and Executive Suit are, there’re some uniqueness and interesting fact about they two, both in internal terms or in relevance terms.

From what I know, then be included with some searches so far, in common Royal Chess is a group that filled by killers who skillfully and high talented in various fields. Each members is represented by chess pieces according to the name of their group. In short, there are position of King, Queen, Bishop, Knight, and Rook. Though being taken from the chess pieces, they just consisted by five member and there isn’t position of Pawn. Myself yet know for sure the motive and the background which real from this group, so just a little conclusions that can I pulled from them.

Phantom Mask self if not wrong placing the position of King. At Chaotic Era period, they five had a big influence by changing the world order. There was no person in this world who didn’t know their fierceness that could devour a warfiled –all sides who involved- only within a very short time, even flatten the warfiled without leaving a trace at all.

Only just like what I had explained before, they suddenly disappeared without a trace when toward the end of Chaotic Era, until finally they were back to appear one by one at new world period before Fall of None tragedy. Though within many of years, the fierceness of each member was never decreasing. Of course I knew because the cases in the new world which I hadled was related to their new move. Until this time, their existences were become a part of history which that name would never disappear from people mind.

My ex-group self –maybe not suitable be called like that- also filled by a bunch of people who talented in many things. Unfortunately we were more devoted to Important criminals field which untouchable by law and including global scope. Could be said, my group who called Executive Suit was inversely proportional with Royal Chess who acted in wide criminals scope which detail, and more to the radical which indiscriminately.

Though basically a group, but we self actually never worked as a team and instead to move independently. We just sometimes gathered when discussing something or there was an event. Myself not really knew the other members of Executive Suit. We just same to had a closed personality and not remembered anything about our background. This condition made an impression that we seemed to suddenly ‘exist’ in the world without any reason and purpose which clear. But, those all slowly began to unraveled as time passed.

Executive Suit self no one who really know for sure when it created and who had made it. What we same to know, Executive Suit was a group who filled by four skilled investigators which be represented by four symbols of card, those were Spade –myself-, Heart, Club, and Diamond. But in it development, there was appeared the truth about Joker’s figure and everything which at last leading us to Fall of None tragedy.

The relevance of Royal Chess and Executive Suit more looked with the development of cases in the world toward Fall of None tragedy. With an interruption from UN side and from some other sides, that just impacted to the world stability and process investigation of the cases which it reality now made all of world stared. Well, there was a rough idea about each sides role during that times. If from my perspective self, the world seemed being played just like that, it seemed to attempt to against His will.

The Scorching of sun slowly to feel shady. The clock shows at fourteen thirty when I and Berry just come out from a cafe that isn’t too far away from our work place. We then stop for a moment to a bookstore before going to the station to continue our travel to the place where we headed.

And of course, what I really want to find at this place is book of ‘Dunia dan Logika’ by an author who her name recently being famous, Riska Ananda. I don’t expect that her struggles now has reached at the point which satisfying –I though she yet feels like that- after passing times which quite heavy.

The book which become her first work this is really grab an interest of wide audience. This book tells the world at those dark days by pretty good. Though ever reaping some controversions, I reliefed because at last this work had manage to be accepted by all people due to the hard work and the prayer from the author.

The story which be contained just like an outline biography from some figures which be narrated by perspective of The Author. Being included by some quotes which nuanced specific lectures that related to the story which being told. I actually had heard some leaks of it contents when she still in creation process of this book. She also often to interview me and some people who related to include some informations which she felt still not enough.

The part which I really want to read is the segment where my brother who become the benchmark. The tales which be told by brother about his private life that myself yet know in perspective of Riska. About his other ‘Family’ and his past which for many years had been he buried by himself. For that reason too, I decided to visit to the place where our lifes began, our home.

My brother self who worked as freelance jurnalist quiet gived a contribution on completion of several cases, though his name self not so prominent. Maybe because our thought were same, so if I can, then brother should be can, even brother might more could then myself. Myself never compared our investigation skills, but honesly I felt there was a similarity between us and that was something which narutals.

During in the train, I continue to explore some remaining files from the office which now I brought and the book which just I bought as it complement. I quiet interest with the part of opposition group where at that time brother began to active focused to politic criminals field.

The police side also quiet helped due to the help from brother, though his last investigation attempt almost became a failure. Meanwhile in different side, couldn’t be denied if the police side actually also gived a suspicion to brother who involved quiet far at those cases. But once again, those all at last just a part from a dirty game.

It takes about half an hour to arrive at the capital city, then we continue the remaining trip which just a little more using bus from bus stop at near of the station. Along the way, Berry asks several things about the place where soon will we visited, meanwhile I answer in necessary and tell him to calm until we really arrive at there.

Now we arrive at the suburbs of capital city where located not far from the harbor. I lead Berry to pass the narrow and winding alleys that quiet grungy. A scenery which never fails to bring back the memories at those times, the time when I and brother faced the rigors of world at age which still very young. And from this place, the fragment of chapter about the brother’s tales was begun....

 

A Family

 

For most people, family is a thing which very important in their life. Anything which concerns to individual and relationship between individuals begin from this little scope. A family always embraces basic and common aspects from the most knowledges which exist.

From parent to child, then from child to grandchild, and that’s so a system which usually be known by term ‘Descent’ or ‘Hereditary’, where this thing roles as a container of the way of relevance or bonds between those individuals periodically without any specific restriction.

The concept of family self isn’t knowing a restriction and broadly. Family is depending on relevance level between individuals and the norms which embrace it. In short, every individual actually have a family in many meant and variety, depended on the opinion of individual who concerned.

But in many cases, that thing has changed into complicated because there are some factors that make individual becomes can’t, till even don’t want to involve in any bonds. The most of those things come from external factors of individual which make him/her influenced and have a mindset changes about bonds which he/she is lived. That’s why, in this world there are many benchmarks about meant of ‘Bonds’ and ‘Family’ which in real can to change their mindset who involved inside it.

For example, a young man –just called him ‘Aku’- was living his daily life like people in common in scope of a family which humble. In that family, ‘Aku’ lives with a middle-aged old man –just called him ‘Kakek’- and a young man and girl who nearly at the same age as him –just called them ‘Teman’ and ‘Gadis’. In fact, there were no one among them who trully bonds by a blood relatives –the basic thing from family bonds- and ‘Kakek’ was building that family by way adopted them who now had became the parts of himself.

‘Aku’ who in reality had a background which quiet dark had to get a negative responses from ‘Teman’ and ‘Gadis’ by different reasons. ‘Kakek’ self not gived any clear clarification about why he wanted to adopt ‘Aku’ with the existence of that factor.

But as time passed, togetherness made them could fuse and accept each others, just like the world at that times when still in progress of re-arranged after the end of Chaotic Era period. They sure could to certain each others, because they were actually same to had a past life which unpleasantly.

‘Kakek’ ever told if he at before had adopted a young boy when at the old war period. He accidentally found that child in the ferociously of warfield which suddenly disappear and only remaining many horrible ruins, just like been buffeted by a big storm.

‘Kakek’ been treating that boy only in a short period of time, until finally he forced to back to the Netherlands after getting a command from his superior. Yup, ‘Kakek” at that time worked as a Chief Doctor who coordinating the Medical Assistance Devision at Dutch Military Units. ‘Kakek’ forcefully to leave that boy by himself  in the warfield until finally there not heard any news about that poor boy.

The life of world’s people after Chaotic Era seemed full by emptiness and without a clear directions, but slowly they continued to move to manage themself and tried to re-build every single things which still could be fixed for sake of sustainability of their future. Just like the world was, the life of ‘Kakek’ family slowly also been more better, especially for ‘Aku’ who this entire time couldn’t free from the shadow of his past.

‘Aku’ now got a chance to fell a normal life just like the teenagers at the same age as him due to his new life was. Got the educations, interacted with other teenagers, competed in innovation and creatifity, and many things which at before hadn’t been he enjoyed which now made him really became a new person.

‘Gadis’ was a person who often to spend her times with ‘Aku’. ‘Gadis’ self just an ordinary girl who her physical continues to weaken because a cephalitis and paralysis which she been suffered at last few years. She now only could lie down and did a routine treatment to monitor her conditions for not worsen. Even so, instead ‘Gadis’ was the figure who slowly could open the heart of ‘Aku’ until finally he could forget the bitterness of past which he been felt unfair was.

Supported from ‘Teman’ also more giving a new hope for ‘Aku’ to fight together to step the new world. ‘Teman’ also for now had a life which not so different from ‘Aku’. He who recently finished his basic educations now continuing to a college where under the institute which be dedicated by ‘Kakek’.

Just how well the life of ‘Kakek’ simple family had, it seemed the wound because of the war and the chaos before now had recovered by itself. But unfortunately, the thing called life wouldn’t foreverly go as we wanted.

That family’s life at the end couldn’t last longer. Just like when we get something, there will something which must disappear from us in exchage. The reality about how cruel the world that couldn’t be avoided by ‘Aku’, same like when he should felt the bitter of the world hell which endlessly in the past.

Life desolated on the streets at young ages was the daily life of ‘Aku’ in order to found his purpose of life which had been lost for long time. The tabooness of the dark world had became a home to stay survived. Many dangerous and forbidden things were just like a toys that never had to bored be he occupied. Sometime ‘Aku’ also showed a drama which full of trickery in order to ‘strip’ they who still lay about the darkness which always exist by their sides. Seizing something which not his by violence, seemed that wasn’t mean anything in his eyes. Those every toxics continued to flow and changed an innocent little boy into someone who even surpass the demon itself.

Though could be said like a ‘Pet’, ‘Aku’ self was actually never felt bonded by somebody or something. When he tired and he had been felt satisfied, then he only had to shut that chains for forever, and after that just turned to the new ‘Employer’. And from many of those ‘Employer’, there only one man  -just called him‘Dia’- who finally could bound ‘Aku’ without release him even for a second.

They two were accidentally to meet each others, but ‘Dia’ could felt the existence of something else inside of ‘Aku’. The nature which cold and no mercy of ‘Aku’ trully unseen from his innocent face which just like a children at his ages. But only ‘Dia’, the only one person who could tame that wild ‘Fox’ by his uniqueness.

That meeting had changed their fate totally. From that point, the peak of dark period of ‘Aku’ in the chaotic warfield was began, which at the end became his daily meals. Together with his teammates, ‘Aku’ was eliminating every single of those chaos without leaving any trace at all. Whether you are in the right or in the wrong side –subjective view-, you will absolutely disappear as long as you still involved inside it. Without heeding the cries and painfully of the fear’s echoes from them who actually didn’t understand anything, those ‘Devils’ always played with blood pouring rains from they who had couldn’t be counted to it amount.

Besides of the talent, there were many external factors which roled as an unseen stanchion which always made them freely to do anything. Because in basic, you will get something which big when you manage to get and gathering several little things, that was the way of ‘Dia’ who became the main motor of those ‘Devils’ from behind the curtain.

The beginning was quiet simple, ‘Dia’ moved to collect the informations and the related powers, then he strangled slowly until to the base. Not only one or two sides in the dark world who had became his target, but scoping all who their existence were very strategic and crusial for smoothly of the plans which had been planned by ‘Dia’ before. And of course, from that period was each member of ‘Devils’were born –included ‘Aku’-, until at the end everything had wiped out and changed to become an empty barren land without anyone who knew the cause was. That moment, which would be remembered as the end of Chaotic Era period, where those ‘Devils’ ever to glorious by their fierceness.

For a moment there not seen any direct relationship between those backgrounds with the concept of ‘Family’ which be issued in here, but when be seen through the views of they who more deeply involved, then it would clear that there was a red string between those both. This is where the role of family once again was asked as the basic builder of character and mindset on individual. When peeks more further inside to the background of ‘Aku’, then that terms actually has a meaning which very thick.

Actually the mental changed in ‘Aku’ self before knowing ‘Kakek’ simple family, even more far before knowing ‘Dia’ began from his small family who very oppositely from ‘Kakek’ family before. A small family which underprivileged and full of problems like they who marginalized by the cruelty of world.

The problem’s root of this family began when The Father got an unilateral dismissal from the place where he been relying on to find the needs of that family in daily life. He who couldn’t to control himself at the end ran to the instant euphoria which more days made him beaten and forgotten himself. The problem more complicated when The Mother was instead increasingly demanding him till often made a conflict which be ended by physical contact.

The mother self who admitted that couldn’t bear with it, everyday more rarely to back home and chose to spend her life on the glamorious of prostitution world and drugs. Even if back home, she only did what her want then back to leave the two children who still needed attention from her just like that.

And when they both met each others, there would no night which could be passed in quietness serenity. Invective harsh words, sound of things which spattered, and lack furnitures which crashed each others were becoming a good night song for those two brothers.

The parents who should give a lectures about the points of norms indeed splited and gave an impact which very bad for those two. Only for ‘Adik’ was ‘Aku’ always attempted to become more mature and responsible about their lifes. No matter how broken ‘The Home’ which they lived, ‘Aku’ always roled as a pillar who protected and educated his little brother to didn’t need to feel the bitterness of world that still too early for him.

For ‘Aku’, only with the presence of ‘Adik’ was he could pass anything and continue to stand fighting the rigors of world. Both shared and understood each others, they just a few figures who reflected that how the world could change something which basic by easily, and not the reverse.

The question is, when you are losing the reason to keep suvive, will you still can to keep standing in middle of the rigors of world? For they who understand the meaning of that quetion, should be know that how important to have a reason to life. Actually there isn’t needed a difficult reason, just a simple reason which can be definited into the mindset of each others.

In ‘Aku’ case, the lost of that reason which became a basic from that mental changes. There were many wise people who said ‘When human is faced to a critical choise, then he will show who he really is’, and that was true. When that family breakdown had went into something threatly, then one option which heavily had to forced ‘Aku’ to accept who he really was.

A result from the lost of that reason had changed figure an ‘Aku’ became someone who no longer he knew. Though by slowly, that changes surely would happen, especially if inside the pressure which made self to feel choked by circumstances. And when the reality trully seized all which precious for him, the figure of ‘Fox’ or be more correctly ‘The Devil’ were at the end borned to the world. Taking a revenge about the things which had lost from himself that at last teaching us one thing...

 

‘Orang-orang selalu menentukan apa yang mereka benar-benar inginkan dalam hidup, namun kehidupan dapat dengan mudah mengubahnya menjadi sesuatu yang tak seharusnya mereka raih...’

The severity of world’s life is always giving birth to many kind of figures who involved inside of it. The good and the bad of someone’s choise, there’s still a time where that choise will end far from it supposed to be. And from that basic concept, human learns and evolves. From small and simple scope called ‘Family’ until in ‘The World’ scope which complicatedly and full of options inside of it.

 

‘And from this moment... those all are just a beginning ...’

 

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