Once in the old times a young male was living in a small village. For this time he was tall and build up well. Every single young woman in his village was longing for his attention. But he had only eyes for a young Lady who was living in the next village. In her veins royal blood was running and she was spoken to a other man. Noel, the name of a young man, gave not up he wanted to win her heart with everything he could give her so every night he was sending out a Dove with love letters and love poems.

 

My love, I have tried with all my being
to grasp a form comparable to thine own,
but nothing seems worthy;

I know now why Shakespeare could not
compare his love to a summer’s day.
It would be a crime to denounce the beauty
of such a creature as thee,
to simply cast away the precision
God had placed in forging you.

Each facet of your being
whether it physical or spiritual
is an ensnarement
from which there is no release.
But I do not wish release.
I wish to stay entrapped forever.
With you for all eternity.
Our hearts, always as one.

 

Each of this poems and love letters Lady Mary was reading. Thinking her fiancé had wrote them for her because Noel forgot to sign them with his name. So the deep love to her soon to be husband grew in her with every piece of paper. Day by Day Noel was waiting for an answer. Never he ,in his life, he would receive one. Now two years were over and still no answer was coming from her love and finally he gave up. Soon his secret love would marry someone else. He was not able to stand it. Packing his stuff together and walking down to the docks. Founding a ship he could work on and in the same time leaving this place forever. The young man was heartbroken. Never again a words of love left his quill just word of sadness he wrote down in a small book.

 

It hit me like a raging tide

That feeling when the air is knocked out of your chest

When you are engulfed in water and try to breathe

A numbing feeling after the initial shock

 

This feeling of someone reaching into my chest and plucking out a piece of me

I was left with a empty gap

I try to fill it

It's all a blur

 

I get sudden reminders

My first love

 

 

Working hard and graining trust by the captain and the crew very fast. In every city they stopped women was laying down to his feet. Noel never noticed them. Always his mind was locked by the one. The one ,he promised to be with forever, The one he promised to gave her his heart. No good words or alcohol could fill this big black hole in his body. The pain by injures as he was falling down from the ship's mast was not as close like the pain in his heart. Laying in the lower deck of the ship for weeks in the darkness. He stopped eating and just drunk. The once well build Noel looked sick and thin as he stepped out again. Every one noticed his fall down but it was nobody's business to offer help. Each of this members had their own problems. Some seeing on their bodies others hidden just in their minds.

 

Never his wounds really healed and with the years he started to fall apart mentally more and more. He stopped talking and also writing poems into the small book. Now his life was filled with working, drinking and sleeping a few hours.

 

While his love was married. Living in money and noble style. Never she had forgotten the letters and poems and every night she was reading them again. Missing that her beloved husband sending her such wonderful things. One day, with the letters in her hand she went to him. Asking him why he changed an stopped sending her this beautiful writing. The prince took the letters and read over them with a raised brow until he threw the writings into the fire.

 

In this moment the Noel was sinking on his knees by a sudden pain. Laughing the prince shook his head and just laughed more. "Never, in my life I would write such a shit. There is not love for you my dear. You are just accessories for me to grain power. Nothing more" Marys face turned white. It was a verbal slap in her face. If not he was the one who write this beautiful things who was it then? Her gaze looked over an saw how the fire was eating the writing and turning them into dust. There is not love for you. This words echoed in her head as she walked back to her room and sat down on her bed.

 

Noel had moved his body back under deck after his break down. Not knowing this night would be his last one. The ship was in the middle of the ocean as it started to rain. The waves was not high so the crew accepted to continue their shipping and not stop in the next city. This was a mistake. It was now around 3 am. For a short time it seemed the weather would change into a sunny day but the gods of the sea had other plans. The rain hit down harder and the wind blew without mercy in their direction. Ripping some sails apart. Everyone was falling out of their beds by the high waves who played with the ship. Fast they rushed out to save what could be save and rescue the ship. By the first try a wave pulled 5 of the crew into the deep cold water and let them sink like a stone. The next wave pushed the ship that strong against a cliff in the water so the body got ripped open and filled the ship slowly. The back of the ship became heavy and lift up the front. The half crew was plunged into the cold waters. But the nature never will show mercy. The wave grabbed the sailors. Some of them got smashed against the ship others against the cliffs before sinking down lifeless. 4 drunken in the lower part of the ship. Loud noises was to hear next to the thunder as the ship broke in two pieces. Noel got buried under a mast before the ship sank down and pulled the rest of the sailors down. Nearly all kind of his bones were smashed. Before his body got covered by the salty water he send last words to heaven "You the one my heart belongs forever. With my last breath I promise you that my soul will waiting of you on the other side. My love is yours forever" Then his words died like the light in his eyes.

 

A loud thunder growled in this moment over the castle where Mary was sleeping in her bed. The loud noise woke her up and she was sitting in her bed. Another thunder growled over the castle this time lower. Through the wide open windows a cold wind was blowing in and played with the curtains. Mary got up and closed them. By the last blow the candle next to her bed who spends a bit light in this big dark room faded. She locked the window as a lightening lighted up the room and it seemed a light shadow was laying something on her bed. It was the frame of a young man who smiled in her direction and gave her a node before he disappeared. This was a dream she thought to herself. It must be a dream that was not real and so she went over to her bed to lay down again. But there was laying a piece of paper now with a red rose.

 

From the beginning of my life
I have been looking for your face
but today I have seen it

Today I have seen
the charm, the beauty,
the unfathomable grace
of the face
that I was looking for

Today I have found you
and those who laughed
and scorned me yesterday
are sorry that they were not looking
as I did

I am bewildered by the magnificence
of your beauty
and wish to see you
with a hundred eyes

My heart has burned with passion
and has searched forever
for this wondrous beauty
that I now behold

I am ashamed
to call this love human
and afraid of God
to call it divine

Your fragrant breath
like the morning breeze
has come to the stillness of the garden
You have breathed new life into me
I have become your sunshine
and also your shadow

My soul is screaming in ecstasy
Every fiber of my being
is in love with you

Your effulgence
has lit a fire in my heart
for me
the earth and sky

My arrow of love
has arrived at the target
I am in the house of mercy
and my heart
is a place of prayer

 

Smelling on the red rose as she was reading the poem. Tears was hitting the paper by reading each word. Outside the sky was clear again. No sign of thunder nor rain. No sign of storm nor of the sunken ship. Pressing the poem against her chest, touched by the words as she noticed another note on the back. "My love. If you read this I won't be here anymore. I can not see how my words fill you with love. A love for a other man raised by my words. I know, never I will forget you and this beautiful smile. The sea will be my new home and I have the feeling it will be my grave. This will be the last words you will read from me. One day you will wake up and see that money and beauty is not everything in this world. It is love true love. I always will wait of you. Not in this life but on the other side. There I will wait of you and then I hope you will be mine. Noel" Looking up and over to the window she took on a robe. Wrapping it around her body and walking down to the ocean. Kissing the red rose and whispering the words "I will be there..to meet you" Then she closed her eyes........