"Why do you always do everything your little sister tells you to do?"

I just want her to feel that I care and support her, is that bad?

"Your sister is a spoiled brat because of what you are doing."

I'm not spoiling her, these things I do for her... it will never equal what she did for me. She's my life, she is the greatest gift I ever received.

"What does it feel to be a big sister?"

"Why are you asking?"

"I want to know what does having a sibling feels."

"Is that what you really wanted?"

"Yes!"

"Ah... Isn't your baby sister cute?"

I saw how their attention shifted from me to my little sister... what is this feeling? Regret?

"Let me hold her."

Hey, look at me! Hey, everyone?

"Me too."

Did she just stole the attention from me? How could you?

"Play with me, sis."

Leave me alone.

"Let's draw."

I hate you, leave me alone. You always put me in trouble, I'm always blamed for your mistakes because I'm the oldest. Just go away!

I entered my rebel years, I always have a heated discussion with my parents. I always end up crying because I couldn't win a single argument. And then she'll come to me like nothing happened, she is the reason behind most of the arguments! Please, stay away from me.

She hugs me... She always hugs me every time I do something for her. Why does it feel so comfortable? Somehow her embrace melts away my anger.

No... I still hate her.

I couldn't take it anymore, I just want to die! Why do I always have to be blamed for everything? Wait... It's not my fault, it's her fault... she should die!

One night, I secretly took a knife to our room. One stab and it will be over.

My heart was beating loud as I placed the knife about a feet above her chest... Why am I feeling... Afraid? Was it because I might go to jail when I get older? I'm not afraid to go to jail... then why?

I returned the knife... I failed my mission. I returned to bed feeling dismayed.

She hugs me again, this time in her sleep, unaware of my desire to to get rid of her. And there goes my anger melting away by her embrace.

Why?

One day she got terribly sick that she was taken to a hospital. Yes, a day without seeing her! Then our mom came home, sad.

I asked her why, she said my sister needs to be confined. Then she told me that my little sister is always looking for me every time she wakes up, I think someone made a pinch in my heart.

"You asked for a sibling, correct?"

Yes.

"Then why are you doing this?"

I'm jealous, she took all the attention from me.

"That's it?"

Yes.

"She loves you."

I...

"She was there when you cry."

Well...

"Don't you love her?"

Stop...

"Do you want to be alone again?"

Alone... Again? Would that mean no one will hug me when I think the world hates me?

"Yes."

Then if I feel like killing myself... I'll just take away my life whenever I please?

"Yes. The world hates you, right? Why would anyone care?"

Tears ran down my cheeks? Why am I crying? I don't want to be alone! I need someone to talk to when I feel the world is against me.

...I need a friend! My little sister... she's my friend, right?

"Don't you hate her?"

Wait! I'm foolish... No... I'm selfish. I only care about myself. I was afraid to give love to others, my little sister keeps on looking for a way to reach out to me. I was blinded by my selfishness, please give me another chance to correct my mistakes.

My little sister was released from the hospital, she's finally okay! I hugged her... tightly.

My little sister thought me how to give love.

And that will never be equal with what I do or give to her... She turned me to a better person.